21 April 2007 @12:47 AM
i'm back with them. but nothing much as i felt the bond was disconnected. surprisingly i am more concern over my new k1 class. not because they are wild, but simply they switch character depending on who's the boss. in class, i enjoy playing boss, or rather the queen. :)
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i feel that my life is like a balloon. when everything is smooth and nice, the balloon shape looks perfect and wonderful, cos the air inside is well controlled. but when sometimes i stress myself too much and its like adding air into the balloon. losing its shape and intended form, anticipating for the balloon to burst anytime. blowing up is an awful scene thus i try my best at the very last few seconds, to let air out of the balloon.
i am encountering challenges everyday at work. challenging children with challenging parents. just handled and closed case of an incident that woke me up to see a clearer picture of myself. i feel that i have not been nice to a lot of people because i did not think nicely of them. as a result, i see the difference.
sometimes its really
weird, the people whom you want to get attention from will not give you much and the person that you don't want to give attention to, is dying for your attention. just as much things you do to get that person's attention, is that much effort that person is doing to get your attention. i guess what goes round comes round.
life is unfair, a lot of things are unfair. i guess after all the changes that i am seeing everyday and all the unhappiness, though mention and not taken into any consideration, is turning my heart colder towards the whole thing. i think being a dead robot, operating as told is better than being shoot back twice as much than what you suggest. tired.
more changes are coming... hai!
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sometimes i want to start everything afresh. knowing new people and making new friends. going into a new environment. going to somewhere where no one knows me so that i can start afresh. there is nothing ever too late to do before you finally die.
♥ there's not a place
in heaven that we cant reach