30 October 2006 @7:55 PM
i kept my cool. i tried to remain calm as i try to protect the rest of them. i wonder what happened to him today,
again. he was all upset as he comes early to school. i had to carry him into class and it created such a scene in front of the other parents. what can i do? i can only do my best. when door was close, i was targeted by him and he actually hit me. the other time i managed to stop him as i managed to hit the red spot and get him to cool down. before i could say or do anything, he already pinched me hard. ouch, not really painful but my heart aches more than the skin.
i settled the class and let them had their free choice activity as i spoke with him at a corner of class. he was cooling off while having a short chat with him and thankfully i manage to distract him with a game that i brough into class. piew! it wasn't easy as i really couldn't figure out where did his angry came from today. also, the rest of the class were really nice, knowing that he is like that, they don't mind playing together with him, despite that really angry look on his face, that scares people.
i came back after their chinese class. as i was preparing them and briefing the children on what to do, he started to feel angry again. this time it was worst. not only he attempt to hit me, he also kicked me and took up the chair with the intention to throw it at me. i managed to stop him and next came his bag. he took it and walked up to swing it in front of my face. at that point of time, i tried very hard to ignore his UNAPPROPRIATE behaviour by walking away but he will come behind to try to hit me. okie, attention is totally gone from me, i guess thats why he targeted his friends. in order to protect them, i shifted all the rest of them sitting on the same table to somewhere else to conduct my small group activity. he got upset and flipped half the table up.
as i was helping another child with her game, he targetted another boy and chased after him. anyway, they got stucked at the table standing in between them, like those bollywood indian tree dance. as i looked over, he took a step back and stopped his actions. the moment i turned, he was like all out to eat his friend. TIME OUT. i felt that i needed help, thus i use my energy to carry him aside to my principal who was just next door. well, it was not easy to carry someone struggling hard and let him pinch you and cannot do anything cos both your hands is occupied. what to do when someone is so hot tempered? anyhow he went home angry as well.
okie, i was really sad. but this is a real like classroom life all about.
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many other stuff happened today. i don't know how to expain. i'm tired. working politics - what's it got to do with me when the person you don't like is not me? just because i am closer to her? argh, childish! i don't like to be drag in like that. i really need more of God's strength and favour upon parents on me. i don't want them to like me, i just want them to trust me that i can teach as they think i am too young, like a child. gosh. -_- i was all down the whole afternoon when i thought of the feedbacks from my principal.
worst still there will be a parent-teacher-conference meeting soon. to think of it, i used to hate such days as my form teacher will dig out my ugly picture in front of my mum. now, i have to meet almost all parents to talk about their kid. i am a little not too early for it. i dare not still say that i am still new to this line but i just know i have to keep learning to be a better teacher as professional and communicator.
who says being a teacher is easy?